Not because they were white..........

Its actually in the middle of the night when Im typing this, thought I would be sleep after a long day yet Im not for some reason. As some of you know, my birthday is tomorrow, but not really gonna do much celebrating this weekend. Found out earlier that my grandfather was having eye surgery for some type of glaucoma on the same day as my birthday, so been a lil worried about him. Also having to get stuff prepped for my 2nd job, gonna be starting it next weekend.

All over the news, people have been talking about the Travyon Martin case, saying that Zimmerman might have gotten off because of he was a white man (even when it was discovered he was hispanic descent). But some of yall need to really stop saying it was just because he was a white man. In a way, this is common to the Casey Anthony case. People keep saying it was because they were white, but actually they got away because they were also well connected. Zimmerman is a son of a retired state judge while Anthony has some ties herself because of her parents. Keep in mind, a few months back, there was a woman & her mother that went straight to jail when they ran their young daughter for about 3 miles & she actually died from exhaustion. They were white yet I knew those people were broke & unconnected when they went straight to jail & a key thing was in the article it said that they lived in a trailer. Also keep in mind that your average black man could go to jail for a commited crime, yet if he was an entertainer or a star athlete, he would get some type of leeway. Even with the Nolan Ryan Henderson incident that happened at Jackson State University, if those wasnt football players, would they have been held accountable for that beatdown?? So overall, if it was only white people that get away w/ things, then 1) Some of your “trailer park white trash” would get away w/ more crimes & 2) Some of your African American entertainers & athletes would have harsher sentences for their crimes.

That in a nutshell, hope yall having a great week & if Im not on here, yall have a great weekend

Who you want vs. Who you need

So still been in the real world, also remembering that when I blog, Im able to do some venting as well as just putting my thoughts on here, even when they are random. I just need to remember to be consistent about the helpful things, including my writing, reading, & my dieting. Also, pray for my family, my Granddad in Houston is having eye surgery this coming week.

So what I have been dealing with is that my supervisor wanted me to lay off of some things this past week, I asked what was going on & she said that she wanted to slow things down because of her health. A few days later, I notice that she was trying to get her grandson involved w/ some of the functions in the office that I was doing. I have been talking to the grandson as a friend for a while, he was saying he didnt want to get involved because it wasnt his type of work, even when he lives w/ her & only works part-time at some spray shirt design store. He even said he himself didnt understand why she was pulling him to do stuff thats supposed to be my job & he didnt want to be there. I even talked to her & she said nothing was going on. Still dont fully know whats running through her mind, but I am still putting out my resume to numerous places.

Now the thing Im just trying to say is some people in this world is mad because people have two types of people around us: 1) Those people that we want to support us yet they dont want to & 2) Those people that support us yet we blow them off. I think a lot of people walk around wanting certain people to care & help you that you overlook those people that support you. Some people are even in situations where their families dont support them yet they need to realize that there are people that are not blood that will be there for them. Even in dating, we blow off complete people for those that only look good on the outside. People would say “Nobody want to ask me out”, but it could mean that OR they just look over the ones that ask them out. Moral of the story: if there are people who have been supportive of you, Embrace them, and dont force people to be there for you if they dont want to be there. And PLEASE dont wait til its too late.

Short & to the point, Hope everyone is having a great weekend

Your Potential & Chances

So I know its been a min since I posted, just been busy w/ some changes. Its my Bday month & I always expect it to be busy. This month, been trying to get stuff together between my job & my 2nd job. So because of my supervisor's dialysis coming up, she had canceled the class that I am supposed to have been help teaching this month. So instead of just sitting at the office & studying for my certification, Im taking my 2nd job at the same place as last year, but this time Im going back into bartending, gonna spend time at both jobs.

A while back, I rented Good Will Hunting from the library, I know Im late, just something in my spirit said just get it. It about this story of a guy named Will Hunting, a guy who works as a janitor that has the ability to solve hard math problems. He has a bunch of friends that you can say are unaccomplished yet they been supportive to him. So one day he gets caught solving a 2-yr-old problem by a professor & the professor tries to help him reach his full potential. He even meets a psychologist to see about his problems. In the process, he meets a girl that goes to Harvard. But as he goes through the story, we see that Will had past problems, and because of those past problems, he has fears of failure & being rejecting opportunities & relationships because he is afraid of being rejected himself.

But I do recommend everyone to see this movie if you havent already. The lesson out of it is that even when you have a bad past, you dont let that keep you from taking chances. Yes, I even have to remind myself this from time to time. I see people these days just cutting off people & opportunities because they are afraid that they would be told no, so its a get-them-before-they-get-me approach. Also, some people can see your gifts before you can, so when you havent figured out what you want to do w/ your life, someone gonna take you & try to mold you into THEIR image. You never know what will happen if you are willing to take chances in life, whether its professional or relationship-wise, its sometimes better to fail than to not even try at all.

Hope everyone has a great weekend