Starting Anew.............

If many of you have noticed something on Twitter, it is true: I have deactivated my old twitter acct & created a new on.  With all the stuff I was going through, I thought it would be time for a change.

 

A while back, me & a friend I have been talking to for almost a year, basically “grew apart”.  We used to talk on the phone every other night & even kicked it a few times.  Then all of a sudden, she was having issues & had to move home w/ her mom & she ended up taking a night job as well.  I once remember that whenever she was stressed about something, she would call me & I would listen & give advice, even supported her on her business.  I understood that she was busy yet I noticed some things that were happening like she would never hit me up on her off day & hang w/ her friends & would flirt w/ more guys on twitter.  I remember we were having full convos through text & I was wondering why she would rather text than talk, we ended up going the whole month of September not talking on the phone w/ each other, she no longer enjoyed talking to me but would not admit it.  I sent her an email saying that I felt like she was hiding behind chatting & texting & I told her if she was not interested in talking to me anymore, just say something & I would just leave her alone.  She caught me on FB chat & chatted about some things, I had to asked her 3x if she lost interest in me, she finally said yes after blowing off the question a few times but she said she wanted to focus more on her career.  A few days later, I gotten a text from her that she missed me & I would always be her friend, yet I responded in an email why would I be a friend when I supported you & you blew off talking to me for over a month?? No response.  What got me was that when my uncle died, she texted me but then she called me at a time when I was at work, almost like she purposely called me at that time to leave a vm so she could avoid talking me.  I remember in the beginning of October, I remembered I followed her best friend & I DMed her on why she was being distant, she pretty much told me that she didn’t like me anymore yet she didn’t even know why.  I thanked her for the info & said her friend was a coward for not telling me this.   I even wrote a blog about why do women push away guys that proved to be supportive to them.  My friend caught wind & instead of contacting me about me talking to her friend & the blog, she blasted me on twitter.  I apologized for my actions yet I told her I was just upset because she wouldn’t talk to me about what was going on.  I sent one last email saying on how she was being distant for no reason & would not communicate & told her if there was any beef between us to PLEASE call me & we could work things out.  I have not heard from her ever since that day & have not gotten a reply to that email.  Now if I was somehow thrown into the friend zone, I just wish she would have said that.

 

 

But after this, it just had me thinking.  This girl basically distant herself & also would tweet, text, & chat, but would not talk verbally about her feelings.  I started to wonder if I was like this since I liked her at one point.  So I basically took a twitter break, before I did, I gave my contact info to some of my closest twitter friends to get at me whenever.  And one night last week, I thought about it; maybe I do need to change some things.  So I decided to become more professional & put my nickname to rest, & that’s how I became @ItsMrJohnson5 , because I also felt I should retire @KingJaffe5 for a better image

 

But I want to thank all my twitter friends that’s been there for me when I was feeling down; Valeria, Lamonica, Shelly, Cicely, Marla, and my LBs Steve & Calvin for reminding me that I should not trip over one pretty face.  I also want to thank God for everything & pray that I would get the bitterness out my system.

 

 

Follow me on my new twitter: ItsMrJohnson5

Year of Communication

Been thinking about stuff that has been going on this year. I think I understand how everything is connected this year: Communication. During the year, I have dealt w/ individuals that had problems w/ it but also have strengthened it / some individuals as well. Some things that happened this year: -I had one supervisor who has been distant from me even when I went above & beyond for her, later found out she was upset because she wanted her grandson in my position & didn’t want to say anything about it. -I had another supervisor that had problems w/ communication. I once had to take off my work shirt to try & fix a desk in the office. The sup walked in, saw me, & instead of asking me what was going on, she pulled my coworkers aside & asked them why I had my work shirt off when I was visible working on something. -Me & my mom in a way having this “quiet battle”. As I mentioned earlier, I have been filling out apps to try to move to Houston. My mom have been making slick remarks, I once talked to my aunt that lives in Houston about who is all hiring, I told my mom I talked to my aunt, , my mom asked if those places has Hot Springs locations I could apply to. My mom has been pushing hard on these Hot Springs places, which I already applied to a while back & haven’t heard from them. Its like my mom wants me to stay but she will not verbally admit it. -And recently I had this close friend that I just lost, we've been talking for a year & we used to talk to each other on the phone, now she has been distant from me. We have not talked to each other on the phone since Aug 28th of this year, she said she has been too busy to talk to me yet she has spent time w/ everyone but me. She would text me & may chat w/ me, yet I get this feeling she is hiding behind that so she wont be vocal. I have sent emails over a month ago talking about us being distant yet she wouldn’t respond. She basically gave me the cold shoulder & yet will not tell me whats wrong & is afraid to be verbal about it even when she still has my number. I do want to ask: Why is it hard for some women to be verbally honest except in gossiping?? Not trying to bash women here.......... But basically what I have done was gotten in contact more w/ my friends on twitter, DMing them that I was taking a break from twitter & just try to call, email, or text me. I just didn’t want to be one of those people that its easier for me to express myself on social sites than in the real world. When Im gonna be back on twitter?? Dont really know, have things to work on. So if you know me through twitter, DM me. Still applying to places in Houston, in fact, planning to make a stop there late next month. Be Blessed & Be Careful out there