May 17th 2011-fizzle

Good Evening.............

Been just a bland day today, btw I hate faxing lmao. But here chilling, gonna watch this Mavs vs. Thunder game tonight, I had a brain fart yesterday, when I saw it in the paper, I thought they were paying Mon night instead of tonight. Also right now I'm downloading Raheem Devaughn's new mixtape that just came out, may listen to it later on tonight. But I have noticed I watch less & less TV & twitter, excluding the occasional sports. Miss my Maury & Jerry Springer, yet I know I have better things to do & they dont come on when I get off or on the weekends. Also stopped listening to the radio, can't really understand what they saying anymore, I might go dumb if I keep hearing someone going Bow Bow Bow over & over again.

Had done my morning running, and thought about what if I could go & run a marathon or something like that. So Im looking for one to run in my area, or may look for one in Little Rock for maybe a weekend visit. Maybe something smaller for a beginner, but just want to do it for the heck of it. They say that running is supposed to clear your mind, yet at times it feels like Im having debates with myself. Cant remember what I was thinking this morning, but I may just write stuff down what I think. Memo to self: Put a sign on my wall and fridge saying No Sugar

Still having to book my trip to Conclave in ATL this summer. Dont know if work gonna let me off that weekend, dont want to make it just a Fri-Sun thing and still trying to find a cheap flight on a Wed or Thurs out of Little Rock. If I dont go, I know I can get time off for the Houston Greek Picnic in August.

Also, hearing about the TSU sextape. I havent saw it but I just saw the FAMU sextape a while back. My thing is Why record it & who actually released it??? If it resembled the FAMU tape, bet you its gonna be a crammed dorm room and some of the girls are ugly. BTW, which TSU was it again?? But Im also upset they wanted to showcase HBCUs doing sextapes when I heard a few major schools have been doing them as well, maybe its just a "we need to do better" thing. But I may hear more details later.

Brief, yet just writing, Be Blessed!!!

Monday & Im alive

Just here at work, and just realizing now Im eating a bag of BBQ chips, I wasnt thinking, just picked up the bag in my desk & started eating *throws away*. Usually boring during the 2nd half of the day, downloading Chamillionaire's new mixtape, yet looking for more neo-soul stuff to download.

So pretty much the Memphis Grizz lost Game 7 by 15 pts last night. I know the city of Memphis was sad & a lil upset by yesterday's play, but the fans of this team are still proud of coming so far. This was a team not many people thought would make it past the first round. My only question is how does Rudy Gay feel?? He was injured and not playing during this run, so w/ this team doing this w/o him, will he be able to make the team better w/ his presence next year OR is he tradeable because they accomplished so much in 2011 w/o him?? OJ Mayo & Conley stepped up HUGE this postseason, Mayo making a case to stay in Memphis rather than be traded. I'll say the Mavs will rep the west just because they beat the lakers.

Back to some stuff at hand, I was talking to a co-worker about workout plans & she was talking about her mom's side of the family being obese. My thing is I do often have questions on it & over the last year, I tried to change some stuff about myself, including my eating habits & working out, Including waking up at the crack of dawn to go running every morning. I have opinions yet dont have all the facts on certain conditions. How I often feel on overweight people is that there may be 2 options to things; 1) learn to love yourself as a heavy-set person and/or 2) Learn to exercise & take care of yourself. I know, I know, easier said than done. They have all these new meds that say they can "zap" weight, yet no one mentions about those people who gain weight because they are unhappy with their lives. A lot of people want overnight results rather than be consistent working out, but usually the overnight stuff only works for a short time then the weight re-appears. If you looking to lose weight, you have to plan accordingly & make sure you stick to the plan & realize short-cuts may not be an option. A pet peeve of mine is those people who say "I want to lose weight so I can meet someone" cause usually when they lose weight & find that person, they get lazy & the weight comes back. Big or Small, you gotta learn to love yourself despite what others say & there is someone for everyone, just be patient.

Just my random thoughts for the day. SN: Does anyone want a bag of BBQ chips, Im not eating them???

Doing nothing on this Sunday...................

Still deciding what to do for the rest of this Sunday. Went to church earlier, interesting message that got onto me about my life. Sometimes God may take away some things in our lives to make sure we would stand up to become a leader rather than a follower. I have known a few people that I've had followed in life, yet I understand that whatever and whoever leaves, would I be able to stand on my own two feet. Also on my life, when my father died, it made me wonder even now on myself making a stronger impact as the man of the house & my family. The question is for certain people: If God took away certain stuff you leaned on in life, would you fall or would it make you become a better person who can stand on your own two feet??


Had a good time in Little Rock yesterday, proud of my homeboy for finally making it graduating from college. Me & CW been like brothers, our parents went to school together at HSU, we both were nerds in high school, but now we both have our educations. This is a guy who was diagnosed w/ A.D.D., took him 5 years to finish high school, even before that, his mom had to sit in some of his classes to make sure he act right. The graduation was cool, first time ever going to an HBCU Graduation (Ass for days!!!! lmao) , got to meet with a few of homie's friends before & after graduation, even chatted w/ one of the professors trying to recruit me to move to Little Rock. May just email that prof later on because he wanted me to look at some info for a foundation in the area. But it doe show me there are a better selection of ladies in that area than where Im at in Hot Springs. Had a few intellectual conversations with some good people, something I havent had in a while. Came back home, was supposed to go back out to LR for grad parties, but fell asleep about 10 watching The Closer, woke up around 6


But hopefully Im also planning a summer of studying, I want to try to take the Series 7 Exam later on. Even talking to my mom's friend about getting sponsorship for it (Under their website, I have to be sponsored, no being independent). Been just years of working yet now I want to do something to better myself in life, and a few years away from turning 30.


But yeah, ready for this Game 7 of the Memphis/OKC series to start in a few. Really hoping for Memphis Grizz to pull this off, hopefully try to make it to the NBA Finals. But win or lose, this was a long time coming for the city of Memphis, my 2nd home. Side Note: Already calling for Miami to lose the series w/ Chicago, I always said if Miami wins the NBA Championship, might as well give Soulja Boy a Grammy............

First post of 2011

Im back on it

A year and a half since I last posted, here chilling off work early, having to go to Little Rock for my friend's graduation at Arkansas Baptist College. Some stuff has changed, been single for 13 months, also still handling business & working in Ark (long story), but I'll tell about it later on. But just saying hi, gonna hit this later on when I break free from errands

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I'm back...........More random thoughts

I know its been a min since I last been on here. Been having to work OT at the job and spending quality time w/ my girl. But I'm having a good day, watching the Cowboys game.

I see that there is a difference between living in Ark and living in Memphis. I see so much in moving back to Memphis. Im waiting on these jobs in TN to call me back. But I want to go back to the place that made me who I am today. When I went to school in Memph, I learned I had to adjust, to become a more relaxed person, and to be a man that don't back down.

When I went back to Ark for my job, I saw something. A lot of these dudes in Ark, they gonna act hard, act like they the shit, yet I see that they not gonna leave their comfort zone. I learned in Memphis that a lot of dudes go out & venture. I also saw something in Greek life and other aspects in Ark; they gonna act hard in the state of Ark, yet they just gonna stay in the box. Trust me, I ALWAYS gave them an invite to things in Memphis, now they do claim they go hard, but they never accept a new challenge and some do not WANT to come to Memphis. Also, a lot of these cats in Ark are like 50 Cent, keep arguing about people talking about them and being paranoid, but I then look at them and look over my shoulder and ask them "Who are you talking about???? No one is after you............" Or when they do go somewhere, they are low-key to the point they don't even wear their letters. Sorry for the blasting..............but when I came back from Memphis, I had all these dirty looks toward me, and I was the good guy, sorry if I dont let drama run my life

I'm blessed to go to the U of M, I had opportunities to do stuff there I know I couldn't hae done in Ark. It did help me to become a better social person. I got to perform in Stepshows in 4 states. I had better role models in TN than I did in Ark...............

But Also I found my future wife in Mem. I've known Jenna since our frosh orientation 7 years ago, yet we've been serious for the past few months. I just miss Memphis and I miss her, I miss my brothers there. I know I don't have that blood family there, but I have family there, if you know what I mean.

That Jarrid E. Johnson, born in Hot Springs, where I was that different one, the one that was picked on, is DEAD!!!! He died when he stepped foot over that bridge, yup, THAT bridge...........Its now Jarrid E. Johnson S.k.a. King Jaffe da 5-Club, and I will NOT back down from a challenge..............Holla at cha boi!!!!

1st of tha Month............

I'm just chillin, catching up on the T.O. show on Vh1.com, watchin the one w/ T.O. dem go to Vegas..................

I for some reason was watching Jerry Springer earlier today when I woke up. Uhhhh, how much are people paid to be on this show again??? Today's episode had a mother keeping her daughter from marrying a guy that didn't have a job, later in the episode, we found out that she is a bi-sexual and she ended marrying BOTH her man & her girl on the side...........

But Jerry's show do have me thinking, people do have tendencies to act strange in certain relationships. You have those that are desperate to be in relationship. Some peeps are so desperate that they will take the 1st person they see. Its real bad in some of these southern places, its a fear of being by themselves, some men & females will literally take bad people, don't take the time to know them before making things official. You also have those that know they have flaws, are in relationships, and will act super-paranoid that someone will take their significant other. If you feel that way, why are you in a relationship??? Its usually that fear of being by yourself.

I notice that people who cheat in a relationship will try to blame the husband. But where's the communication??? Why do you have to wait to tell someone a secret on a talk show rather than tell them one-on-one?? And if you cheat because the other person was a bad person, why didn't you say something in the 1st place, why would you just leave rather than cheat?? You would basically put yourself at a lower level.


3 Things I want to close out on:
1) Learn to have that confidence on yourself, once you become a good person, good people will come to you.
2) Desperation is a bad look, the more desperate you are, the lower you will go and the more sh** you are bound to let slide
3) Make sure you & yours have a CLEAR line of communication, make sure you are both on the same page, and if its not working out, make sure EVERYTHING is thought out before giving up.


Ya'll have a good night..................

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