What Im thankful for

Nothing much has changed since I last wrote. I have still been working & in fact, gonna hear from my friend/manager from the 2^nd job on what she would need from me if I do start this week.  I spent most of Saturday helping my sis w/ some research for school at the library.  But while I was talking to her, she mentions that my family, who I thought was coming in maybe Wednesday, came in YESTERDAY, and are staying out on Lake Hamilton in some sort of timeshare property.  So hopefully, I can try to spent the rest of this weekend cleaning my junkie room.

 

But knowing this is Thanksgiving week coming up, I know I have to remember all the things that Im thankful for.  Looking over 2012, even if there is one month & some change left, Im thankful for the things I learned.  I know I lost some close relatives & friends this year, Im thankful God allowed me to be closer to my family that don’t live in the same city as me.  Also thankful that I have been able to get closer to some of my friends on twitter, and the people I now follow & talk to all have good things going for themselves.   Im thankful for having the ability to make my circle from random people to people I know that will have my back & I know I can be a good friend to them.  For my two uncles that died this year, Im thankful they showed me the meaning of being men, to do what you have to do to make a living & handle responsibility.  Im thankful for my mom & sis, I know they may bug me at times but I still love them & will lay my life on the line for them.  I know its been 18 yrs since my dad’s death, yet I am thankful for the short time I had w/ my dad & being able to say I have a dad that loved his family & was a positive role model not just for me but for the city of Hot Springs.  Im thankful to wake up & sleep every day, thankful to walk, talk, pray, thinking for myself, & everything else.

 

 

Last but not least, I am thankful to God for me being different.  I know I sometimes express myself more than the next person, yet I feel that its better to say whats on your chest than just holding it in.

 

But leaving some of my words here, bout to go see if I can finish cleaning up & may check out this Dallas/Cleveland game & its a close one.

 

Monday is Mine

Feel like a zombie typing this up. Whats been going on w/ me?? Life. So on the business front, still working yet have been talking to other companies, in fact, already talked to someone this morning. I interviewed for an HR position & should be called back about it later on. On the way out, I ran into one of my mom’s friends, she just been named manager for a new store & she asked me about being a asst manager for the night shift. Hey, its more money as a temp 2nd job, and I wont go to Houston empty handed. Speaking of Houston, so far Ive decided to move in January, November & December are the holidays. But I do want to make it to NBA All-Star Weekend in Houston in February. Mom & sis are doing well. Mom still a lil upset about me thinking about Houston yet I see now It might be because of her relationship w/ my grandpa. As for my sister, the football season is over & I was proud of her for making it in her first full football season as a varsity cheerleader. Took her out to eat a bit during this past weekend. While at the store, one of her male friends came to me & told me I spoil my lil sis. I do sort of agree & might back off a bit, yet still looking at buying my mom & sis gifts for Christmas. Now also in my personal life, I have sort of taken up a new thing: Zumba. I went to my 1sr ever class last Friday morning, it was steady movement yet it felt like I was doing some robot moves at time lol. Been more social as well, talking to people on the phone more often now & texting more often. I already now have a “lady friend” I talk to, The only thing is Im still trying not to be afraid about what if I start boring her. But yeah, that’s it in a nutshell, still a lil tired, must not been getting that much sleep at work lol.

Starting Anew.............

If many of you have noticed something on Twitter, it is true: I have deactivated my old twitter acct & created a new on.  With all the stuff I was going through, I thought it would be time for a change.

 

A while back, me & a friend I have been talking to for almost a year, basically “grew apart”.  We used to talk on the phone every other night & even kicked it a few times.  Then all of a sudden, she was having issues & had to move home w/ her mom & she ended up taking a night job as well.  I once remember that whenever she was stressed about something, she would call me & I would listen & give advice, even supported her on her business.  I understood that she was busy yet I noticed some things that were happening like she would never hit me up on her off day & hang w/ her friends & would flirt w/ more guys on twitter.  I remember we were having full convos through text & I was wondering why she would rather text than talk, we ended up going the whole month of September not talking on the phone w/ each other, she no longer enjoyed talking to me but would not admit it.  I sent her an email saying that I felt like she was hiding behind chatting & texting & I told her if she was not interested in talking to me anymore, just say something & I would just leave her alone.  She caught me on FB chat & chatted about some things, I had to asked her 3x if she lost interest in me, she finally said yes after blowing off the question a few times but she said she wanted to focus more on her career.  A few days later, I gotten a text from her that she missed me & I would always be her friend, yet I responded in an email why would I be a friend when I supported you & you blew off talking to me for over a month?? No response.  What got me was that when my uncle died, she texted me but then she called me at a time when I was at work, almost like she purposely called me at that time to leave a vm so she could avoid talking me.  I remember in the beginning of October, I remembered I followed her best friend & I DMed her on why she was being distant, she pretty much told me that she didn’t like me anymore yet she didn’t even know why.  I thanked her for the info & said her friend was a coward for not telling me this.   I even wrote a blog about why do women push away guys that proved to be supportive to them.  My friend caught wind & instead of contacting me about me talking to her friend & the blog, she blasted me on twitter.  I apologized for my actions yet I told her I was just upset because she wouldn’t talk to me about what was going on.  I sent one last email saying on how she was being distant for no reason & would not communicate & told her if there was any beef between us to PLEASE call me & we could work things out.  I have not heard from her ever since that day & have not gotten a reply to that email.  Now if I was somehow thrown into the friend zone, I just wish she would have said that.

 

 

But after this, it just had me thinking.  This girl basically distant herself & also would tweet, text, & chat, but would not talk verbally about her feelings.  I started to wonder if I was like this since I liked her at one point.  So I basically took a twitter break, before I did, I gave my contact info to some of my closest twitter friends to get at me whenever.  And one night last week, I thought about it; maybe I do need to change some things.  So I decided to become more professional & put my nickname to rest, & that’s how I became @ItsMrJohnson5 , because I also felt I should retire @KingJaffe5 for a better image

 

But I want to thank all my twitter friends that’s been there for me when I was feeling down; Valeria, Lamonica, Shelly, Cicely, Marla, and my LBs Steve & Calvin for reminding me that I should not trip over one pretty face.  I also want to thank God for everything & pray that I would get the bitterness out my system.

 

 

Follow me on my new twitter: ItsMrJohnson5

Year of Communication

Been thinking about stuff that has been going on this year. I think I understand how everything is connected this year: Communication. During the year, I have dealt w/ individuals that had problems w/ it but also have strengthened it / some individuals as well. Some things that happened this year: -I had one supervisor who has been distant from me even when I went above & beyond for her, later found out she was upset because she wanted her grandson in my position & didn’t want to say anything about it. -I had another supervisor that had problems w/ communication. I once had to take off my work shirt to try & fix a desk in the office. The sup walked in, saw me, & instead of asking me what was going on, she pulled my coworkers aside & asked them why I had my work shirt off when I was visible working on something. -Me & my mom in a way having this “quiet battle”. As I mentioned earlier, I have been filling out apps to try to move to Houston. My mom have been making slick remarks, I once talked to my aunt that lives in Houston about who is all hiring, I told my mom I talked to my aunt, , my mom asked if those places has Hot Springs locations I could apply to. My mom has been pushing hard on these Hot Springs places, which I already applied to a while back & haven’t heard from them. Its like my mom wants me to stay but she will not verbally admit it. -And recently I had this close friend that I just lost, we've been talking for a year & we used to talk to each other on the phone, now she has been distant from me. We have not talked to each other on the phone since Aug 28th of this year, she said she has been too busy to talk to me yet she has spent time w/ everyone but me. She would text me & may chat w/ me, yet I get this feeling she is hiding behind that so she wont be vocal. I have sent emails over a month ago talking about us being distant yet she wouldn’t respond. She basically gave me the cold shoulder & yet will not tell me whats wrong & is afraid to be verbal about it even when she still has my number. I do want to ask: Why is it hard for some women to be verbally honest except in gossiping?? Not trying to bash women here.......... But basically what I have done was gotten in contact more w/ my friends on twitter, DMing them that I was taking a break from twitter & just try to call, email, or text me. I just didn’t want to be one of those people that its easier for me to express myself on social sites than in the real world. When Im gonna be back on twitter?? Dont really know, have things to work on. So if you know me through twitter, DM me. Still applying to places in Houston, in fact, planning to make a stop there late next month. Be Blessed & Be Careful out there

R.I.P. Sgt David Lee Johnson

Been feeling a li lsick, thats why this may sound a lil off today. So Im here just to do some reflecting. This past weekend I went to the funeral of my uncle in Hope, Ark. For those that don’t know, my uncle had an 18-day battle w/ the West Nile Virus. I have been contacting his wife before he died & although he did get a surgery, he was still having effects. During my time in Hope, I got to actually see the people he had made a difference for & how well known he was in the city & southwest Ark. It was weird how I went to the city & still expected to see him. But I just also see how this death made me think of some things. Now my other uncle is the last surviving child of my grandmother AND since my uncle & other cousins carry a different last name because of my grandmother’s 2nd marriage, Im pretty much the only one left to carry the Johnson name. With all these deaths that happened the past year and a half on both sides of my family, I think I see the connection. All these people have touched people & have worked hard all their lives, they did what they had to do to support their families & loved the jobs that they did. With my father’s side of the family, it contained men that loved the mothers of their children & they have worked as well as being known as men of integrity. At times, I wondered if I could measured up w/ the men in my family & even my father, so Im reflecting on life on how Im making a difference in life & if Im working my hardest. But the thing you have to ask in life is What are you doing to be productive in your life?? If you died today, how do you want people to remember you?? R.I.P Sgt David Lee Johnson

Back in August................

Hope everyone is doing well. Just owe back some time on here & give an update on life. Still been doing my 2nd job yet that will be over at the end of October. Things have been frustrated because at one point I was up for a promotion at the 2nd job yet they end up giving it to a younger guy, but Im not trying to be bitter, the guy has 4 kids & his wife is stay-at-home. As for my main job, I haven’t been teaching since Feb and since my sup is still having her health problems, my training still has been on hold & I’ve been stuck just maintaining the office. So basically I’ve been taking up a 3rd job; giving plasma at the center down the street from my house. Also have been seeing this great woman, I like her yet I wonder if she feel the same way about me, and she stays in Memphis. Got to kick it w/ her last month & she is more gorgeous in person than in her pics. Also what I love about her is that she is genuine, really separates herself from other woman, & she has goals for herself. I just hope that me being in Ark & her in Memphis don’t stand in the way. I have gotten contacted by an employment center in St. Louis, gonna try to hit them up once I get something from my aunt that stays there, she said she wanted to talk to them to make sure they were legit. Texas & even Memphis are still options, depending on who has the best offer on the table. Next Saturday is my mom’s BDay & still doing some shopping, already gotten her first gift yet still seeing what I can get, even when I had bills to pay. Wish me the best!!!

Me @ The Peabody Rooftop Party last month

Accidental Break............

So yeah, this is what I like to call an “Accidental Break”....................... Here at work getting things done, working on a new slideshow. Dont really know where to start. So Im actually now spending more time w/ the 2nd job than my first job. There have been more complications at my first job, a lot of miscommunication & no one wants to talk about what is wrong, not even my supervisor. But at my 2nd job, I have been put into the running as a supervisor in the next month or 2. My sup at my 2nd job is going through training for the Army so he wants me to take over for him once he leaves. As for her grandson, I left him alone, my mom & other people told me I have to be better at choosing friends. My birthday back in March was ok, didnt really do much, and prolly saying that because its hard to remember it. My sis's Bday was back on May 5th, we got to kick it as well.But also proud to announce that my lil sis made the High School Varsity Cheerleader Squad, so that means I'll be cheering for her during the friday night lights this fall. Mothers Day was good, had to work yet gotten some gifts & did dinner for my mom. I am blessed to have her as my mom, even when it annoys me when she waits til the last minute to tell me stuff & has a hard time holding water, if you know what I mean. I was also meaning to make a trip back to Memphis next week yet still dont know, my mom just telling me about some money issues she needed help with. Sort of miss my friends there & also miss Nina, we talk on the phone almost every other day yet still looking to actually see her again. I think she a lil mad at me because I wasnt able to talk to her on the phone yesterday during lunch But I'll try to be back on here w/ some more stuff, especially when I had some interesting things happen.