Going back at it.........

Back at work today, it was an interesting weekend. So my grandmother's funeral went ok, I ended up being a pallbearer for the funeral. It just really got to me last weekend that my own grandmother was gone. I had seen some of the family in Texarkana, I know there has to be a time where I will actually go to that city w/o it having to be a funeral to go to. But really, there have been some members of my family I feel detached from, prolly because Im usually the only 20-something male, also because they like my little sister better, also I really dont talk to one of my aunts that much because of some stuff that happened in Dallas a few years back. But also, I have my other favorite aunt from St. Louis saying she wants me to move down there, I keep hearing there was a problem w/ the economy there yet my aunt keep telling me that there are some people there that might want to hire me. I keep seeing myself as a TX person yet w/ everything going on, I'll just pray on the options out there to see which one is best for me.

I got back home on Sunday but took another day off because of some business I needed to handle some business. I was going to buy me a new phone this week yet I found out my mom procrastinated on paying one of her bills & needed me to help out, so the new phone had to wait a lil bit longer. Love my mom, yet hate it when she tells me some stuff at the last min.

So as far as this weekend, other than work, I'll be helping out w/ The Hot Springs Blues Festival. An old co-worker got me on & I'll be heading to a info/staff meeting tonight when I get off work. Let me get off of here, Im hungry.

My update for this time................

I know it has been a few days since I put some stuff down on here, but its just some things going on in life.

Still working my 2nd job, but will be ending that at the end of October, through 2 weekends, its cool yet some of these females there are the most gossipish folks I ever met, so I have to keep to myself at the time.

Also, Please pray for my family. Last weekend, my grandmother died & we have been getting funeral arrangements together & the funeral is this weekend. Been talking to my mom all this week to see if she ok, and the thing is its my mom's Bday on Thursday. Dont know what to do w/ my mom having her Bday & then having to bury her mom the very next day. So as far as I know, there have been 5 deaths this year alone for people that are in my family. I talked to my mom, I have thought about getting some help, maybe to just see where my head is. I do feel sad at death, yet its like ever since my dad died when I was 10, I had this strange coping mechanism. Because of all my life, I have been the closest to my dad, and when he left, other than my mom & sis, I didnt feel I had that same attachment like that to other peeps. Every funeral I went to, I didnt cry, I might be scared now if I'm holding things in that I dont even know about. But heading out to Texarkana this evening, hope everything goes well.

Question about Oprah

I meant to tell some people, if you havent seen me on Twitter in a good while, Im only taking a short vacation from it..............


But this is for the women that watch Oprah & may see Oprah as a role model. I know Oprah may be the most successful black woman in the world right about now. But I wondered something. Oprah is presently not married. There are many women out there that pushing real hard to get married. Oprah basically did all the things she wanted, and became a billionaire w/o being married or even presently having a serious relationship. So do some women in some reason, even when Oprah is super successful, look at Oprak differently because she is not married at 57?? Does she force certain women to try to think for themselves & be independent to become successful??

Just some random thinking??

Enough Apps/30 Day Song Challenge - FINAL DAY!!!

So I went to the store to pick up something to eat & when I came out next to it was a place I applied for a 2nd job a few weeks ago. I saw they still had the We are Hiring sign even when I put my application in a few weeks back. I went back to my office to just call them & that place told me "We didnt fill the position because we didnt have enough applications turned in for it" WHAT??? And I know I qualified for the position. So I told my mom about what they said & she said they might have been uncomfortable for having a black male working there. But should I just let it go because I found a 2nd job??

But yeah, the 30 Day Song Challenge FINAL DAY *does crazy dance* But today has to be a song that I liked last year. If I remember, this time last year I was returning to Hot Springs because some things fell through in Memphis. Just happy Im better now than I was a year ago. I was mad about some stuff so I turned to rap for a minute. But this one song made me want to get even w/ certain people at that time (Some friends, ex, some frat, etc.....), but I learned to calm down, BUT I still like this song at times.


Plies - Me & My Goons

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 29

A song from my childhood.............

Just takes me back when my father was alive when I was younger. He would play these songs, I think I still have his record player in my closet. But I do remember that him & my mom were big fans of Luther Vandross


Luther Vandross - Love Wont Let Me Wait

Weekend Update/30 Day Song Challenge Updates Day 26-28

So really just worn out but at least had a great night of sleep last night............

But this weekend at the 2nd job went well, I basically help w/ human resources at the amusement park during the weekends, will be doing it until the end of October. Just had some other things come up, knowing I may have to help my sis on her cheerleader charges & also my ps2 may be done with so I might just buy me a xbox 360 for Christmas. Speaking of my sister, Im praying for her, today was her first day of high school.

So because I was busy this weekend, I wasnt able to post some of the 30 day song challenge songs, glad this is almost over tho.

Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument - I havent touched my trombone in almost 14 years, I remember back when I was in school when EVERYONE was playing this on the drums

Aaliyah – One in a Million





Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play - First heard this song on BET Uncut, wanting to learn more about the guitar and try to impress some people & some of the ladies playing this


Huey Dunbar - Chasing Papi





Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty - Guilty about what?? Hard to answer this one. Thinking about a gospel song, maybe thinking about my bad days & just doing some guilty stuff while trying to be a good christian

Kirk Franklin - My Life Is In Your Hands

2nd Job/30 Day Song Challenge - Day 25

Im pretty much ready to go home & just go to bed. Glad this week is over with..............well, Almost. I gotten a call today about a 2nd Job I applied for, gonna be working at the nearby amusement park during the weekends & in fact start Saturday morning. Dont really have anything planned but my friend that works there tried to get me to apply because all the teens are going back to school & I could go & get some easy money.

But w/ the 30 Day Song Challenge, its a song that makes me laugh. I think it has to be this one by Luda. I sat down a long time ago & actually heard the lyrics, then I saw the video & made me fall out.

Ludacris - One More Drink

My Trip to Houston

Good day going so far. I thought I would be blogging during my trip, but then again, I enjoyed the time off from even being on the internet or in front of a desk. So me & my family ended up leaving out of Ark that Thursday morning & ended up staying at my grandparents’ house in Missouri City. So that Friday, we ended up going to Galveston, me, my aunt, my sis, and my cousin went to Schlitterbahn waterpark & when that closed we went to the boardwalk where we chilled by the Gulf of Mexico w/ some Taco Bell. Got back to the crib about Midnight Friday night wore out.

So Saturday, I got up, was gonna go to the Texas Greek Picnic, yet had a bunch of family come through & ended up going to see Captain America in 3D and went shopping at the Galleria. On Sunday, me & the fam went to church in Katy, TX, service was good, while waiting on my grandmother get out of an finance meeting, my grandfather talked to me one-on-one. He mentioned to me that he knew I wanted to venture out & better myself, yet he told me to stop using my family in Ark as an excuse to stay. He told me that God would handle them, and it is that time where I have to go forward to continue my self-improvement. He did tell me that Houston had a lot of nice women for me to talk to, might be a sign from me that he may be interested in me moving to Houston. But when we got back to the crib, another aunt of mine wanted to take me & my sis to the Kemah Walkway/Amusement park, we got to ride some of the rides & ate at the Joe’s Crabshack. My aunt that took us here was an alumni of the Univ of Texas – Austin and I might go w/ her on a campus visit if I get the time. Monday, I didn’t really do anything but chilled, my mom & sis got to go to a local morning show & shopping, I caught up w/ my Jerry Springer & Maury lol. But I did go out a bit, went to the nearby gas station, even there I saw some things I didn’t see in Arkansas; Doritos in Spanish w/ super hot flavors, refer smelling incents, and FOUR LOKOS (A drink banned in states including Ark for it being an alcohol/energy drink) so I ended up picking up some of that stuff. Went back to Ark about 6am Tuesday, the ride was shorter because of some bootleg movies I picked up in TX.

But the trip was interesting. I didn’t get to go to the Texas Greek Weekend events, but the time w/ family was much needed, I learned more about them, and they learned more about me. I did mention in an earlier blog that it was over 10 years since I seen/heard from my mom’s dad side of the family. But all those people I missed out to all those years, I wish I got know them earlier yet I see my future w/ them is bright. But I also see about What if Houston would be my destination in the future?? Over a year ago, I was first planning on moving back to Memphis, but I saw that there were issues over there, including the murders, the school lockouts, and certain living situations, and I see that the good people there have made plans to move out of there in a few years. Now w/ Houston, I have both my mom’s side & my dad’s side of the family living there, and there would be opportunities there for a better job & life, hey, its Texas anyway. But I will definitely pray about it & if its in the cards for the move to happen, it will happen.

Who really is the daddy???

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 24

Basically A song that you want to play at your funeral. Hard to imagine my own funeral, Im just living day by day. But I know I dont want people to be sad when I leave this earth. I may want one of those New Orleans funerals, where people are dancing rather than crying.

Dukes of Dixieland - New Orleans Funeral

30 Day Song Challenge Day 23

A song that you want to play at your wedding. I thought of one a few years back, plus all the old ass songs were taken. I really dont see myself as the marrying type, but if I do, it might be this one.

Marques Houston - Always & Forever

30 Day Song Challenge Updates

I know some of ya'll missed me, just got back in from my trip to Houston, will have a blog up on what happened while I was there.

Day 17 (8/4) – A song that you hear often on the radio

Rick Ross – Tupac Back




Day 18 - (8/5) A song that you wish you heard on the radio

Jamie Foxx - Show's Theme



Day 19 - (8/6) A song from your favorite album

Portrait - Precious Moments



Day 20 - (8/7) A song that you listen to when you’re angry

Kool & the Gang - Summer Madness



Day 21 - (8/8) A song that you listen to when you’re happy

Impromp2 - Enjoy Yourself



Day 22 - (8/9) A song that you listen to when you’re sad

Yolanda Adams - Open My Heart




Just playing catchup. But gonna lay it down, its been a long day on the road

Packing/30 Day Song Challenge - Day 16

Just got through mowing the lawn, still a bit tired yet gotta still pack & have to run back out to Walmart to exchange shirts, didnt realize that because of my workouts, I have shrunk down 2 pants sizes & 1 shirt size. Hopefully leaving for Houston late tonight or early in the morning.

For Day 16 of the 30 Day Song Challenge, A song that you used to love but now hate. I will confess I used to like this song when I first visited Dallas. But now Im like whats the use for it?? But also I think it paved the way for other stupid dances we have now in society.

Soulja Boy Tell'em - Crank That (Soulja Boy)

Prepping/30 Day Song Challenge - Day 15

Im already tired & havent even left town yet. So yesterday right after I got off work, I had to help out w/ some outside work for someone. Just basically pulling up outside carpet to help make way for some new carpet, my hands still sore but it wa extra money in my pocket. I know today gonna be a busy day; when I get off, meeting mom at Walmart, may have to mow the lawn because my mom's friend still had the lawnmower to fix, and having to go to another person's house to help put together a bed, and I really still haven't started packing even when Im leaving Wednesday. And my friend that got hired by the hotel?? They had this last hired, first fired thing, some dude only was working at the hotel for 2 whole days.

But really, I know I haven't really been putting up some major blogs, but hopefully I'll put some thoughts & observations up when I get the time, just been busy w/ some stuff.


For Day 15 of the 30 Day Song Challenge, a song that describes me. Can't really find that exact song that describes me, but I'lll come close to it. In college, I earned the nickname King Jaffe after my resemblance to James Earl Jones, so I often went by both names. Last year, I saw that Willie Taylor, dude from Day 26, brought out a solo mixtape. I downloaded it, loved it, and also saw & listened to this song that sort of reflected my nick name. I know I might have cheated, but so what?? lol

Willie Taylor- King Of the Jungle

Well, Well, Well/30 Day Song Challenge - Day 14

I can tell these next few days of work gonna be long, it always is during the week of a trip. It took forever to go from 8am to now, still figuring out whats for lunch.

Talked to homie yesterday, I blogged yesterday that I was called over to help fix his mom's cable box. They first told me that they were getting someone to comeover & fix it Sunday, but then.........*drumroll*.........She messed w/ the box on Sunday & broke it. Moral of the story: If you dont have patience for getting things fixed, you might make the situation worse.

Now for Day 14 of the 30 Day Song Challenge, its a Song I like that no one would think I would like, so I know I gotta bring something out of left field. At first I was gonna put Shaq's You Cant stop the Reign, but I may found something even farther. I remember back when I went to the movies to see Batman Forever, right afterward I gotten the soundtrack to it. I like it, liked the tracks from Method Man & Seal, but especially like this track from U2.

U2 - Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me