Been a min since I did some writing. Im actually in Texarkana, AR, not gonna be back in Hot Springs until Monday evening. Spending the weekend at my aunt's house w/ my mom & sis, my mom didnt want me to get a hotel room cause she said I had 3 relatives that said it was ok for me to stay w/ them.
I'm here for my great-grandmother's funeral, she lived to be 94, she had a great life & she was a christian woman. She also owned a hair shop for a good number of years. It was my mom's dad's mother, so I met a lot of folks in the family I havent seen since my high school days. I've seen mostly my mom's mom's side of the family, yet haven't got to know much of the other side. My grandmother had 3 kids by 3 different men, my mom was the 1st born. Found out I have all this family living in Houston, TX, also about a handfull in Atlanta, GA, one of my cousins work for a place there called Fiore or I think Bel Fiore. I met 2 of my mom's sisters I never knew about. I also met my granddad, havent seen him in about 12 or so years. Never really had a chance to talk to him, but now I see how an amazing man he is. He is a God fearing man, and he makes sure his children are well grounded, but I also learn that he one of those men that has the ability to really see right through people. He was bugging my mom about when she was gonna visit him in Houston, she doesnt know when she would come down, but I told him that I myself would come down and visit. What I may do is go down & visit Houston in August.
Although this was a sad reason for family to travel & come together, Im glad I got to see my extended family. But it also showed me something else; Alot of the family trees I've seen all have strong foundations. Most people I know have grandmothers & older family that have been hard workers & christians & tried to pass down those principles to their kids. I see today that everyone is just having kids & not having nothing going on w/ themselves or their families. The key thing is you have to be the example you want your kids to follow. I see too many parents these days who expect their kids to be good & be hardworkers yet the parents themselves are about nothing. I know my dad was a hard worker and his dad was a hardworker, so Im gonna be that hard worker & I actually want my child to see me & my family as rolemodels, so I know Im not gonna be lazy, because if I am lazy, I'll be a failure to myself and for my future generations.
Hope you have a great weekend & be careful on this great holiday!!
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Just blaze.................
Howdy Doody!!!! lmao
Bored & ready to get off work. Finist going over some files earlier, it just doesnt feel like a Monday today for some reason. I'm also getting on some Neo Soul Music, some mixes good on here:
http://gumbosoulmixshow.podomatic.com/
Have this craving for french fries, may go get some later on, no salt on them buy gonna have BBQ
But yeah, Chicago loses Game 3 & is trailing Miami 2-1 in the series. Its scary: Miami seem like they are actually...................Bonding??? But what got me as well is that Bosh is actually putting up some big numbers in this series, I actually thought it was just Lebron & Wade's team by themselves. Now I want the series to push for that Game 7 just so we would have a heavy game to watch.
But on a downside note, talked to my mom last night, I had a Great-Grandmother that passed early Sunday morning. She was on my Mom's Dad's side, I hardly knew her, my mom said I havent met her since I graduated high school in 02. The funeral is gonna be held in my mom's hometown in Texarkana. The strange thing to me is that this is only May of 2011 and this is at least the 4th death in the family we already had this year. When I got off the phone w/ my mom, I was just walking around in the kitchen, was gonna put the trash out, but was just walking around having all these thoughts going in my head. Seem like yesterday me & my cousins were little & were looking up to these relatives, but now we growning up, some of us having our own families & careers, and all that stuff, and now we are about to be the ones to keep our family going on. I swear Im might be drinking more if this keep up this year, but I might hold off, just gonna be praying more for my family.
Bored & ready to get off work. Finist going over some files earlier, it just doesnt feel like a Monday today for some reason. I'm also getting on some Neo Soul Music, some mixes good on here:
http://gumbosoulmixshow.podomatic.com/
Have this craving for french fries, may go get some later on, no salt on them buy gonna have BBQ
But yeah, Chicago loses Game 3 & is trailing Miami 2-1 in the series. Its scary: Miami seem like they are actually...................Bonding??? But what got me as well is that Bosh is actually putting up some big numbers in this series, I actually thought it was just Lebron & Wade's team by themselves. Now I want the series to push for that Game 7 just so we would have a heavy game to watch.
But on a downside note, talked to my mom last night, I had a Great-Grandmother that passed early Sunday morning. She was on my Mom's Dad's side, I hardly knew her, my mom said I havent met her since I graduated high school in 02. The funeral is gonna be held in my mom's hometown in Texarkana. The strange thing to me is that this is only May of 2011 and this is at least the 4th death in the family we already had this year. When I got off the phone w/ my mom, I was just walking around in the kitchen, was gonna put the trash out, but was just walking around having all these thoughts going in my head. Seem like yesterday me & my cousins were little & were looking up to these relatives, but now we growning up, some of us having our own families & careers, and all that stuff, and now we are about to be the ones to keep our family going on. I swear Im might be drinking more if this keep up this year, but I might hold off, just gonna be praying more for my family.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
My Inner Asshole
So everyone is accounted for on this Sunday, where is Herald Camping so I could holla at him for a min.................
www.youtube.com/embed/8I8vBbDM6Co
So I saw this video on Youtube, another favorite vid blogger, and he just got me thinking. I really do need to exercise my inner asshole. Just thinking back in certain stuff, including relationships & other things in life, I may have been too nice. Women have been arguing about there is no good men around, yet are women more entertained by the good guy or the guy thats the asshole?? Women can SAY they want a good guy but actions can speak differently especially w/ choosing a certain man. Women can blast men all day long, but who's choosing them and not really getting to know them before laying w/ them?? Women, why do some men become bad?? Because some of us notice that we can have sex & get other stuff w/ certain women sooner as being bad than being good. And I have notice that somehow the good man is looked at as the backup option instead. Here's a story that happened to me a couple of years ago:
I was cool w/ a girl named Samantha in high school, she was a grade under me, but then she moved to Kansas City w/ her family. Fast forward to 2007, I saw her on MySpace & she now a model, I was gonna visit her city because of my frat's regionals, send 2 msgs to her, yet never heard from her. Then around late 2008/early 2009, Sam hits me up on facebook. Now she talking about how she had a crush on me when I was in high school, and she was having problems w/ her babydaddy in KC. I should have been like why didnt you hit me up in 07 but I listened, but now she hasnt said much to me anymore.
But thinking about it now, maybe I really didnt use my inner asshole to save my last relationship. I was accused of being boring, and a lot of stuff I talked about went over her head. I dont really talked to my ex anymore because if she felt I was boring, then she doesnt have to worry about me anymore. Im just working on my inner asshole, still gonna be me, but not being a fullblown asshole, but to where I can be unpredictable & not a walkover.
But being an asshole doesnt just go for relationships or meeting women, but also other aspects. Going to the Univ of Memphis, Coach Cal was one of my favorite coaches on the scene. On campus, a lot of people said Coach Cal was an asshole to people, but he got the job done w/ the bball team.
OK, Im done & Im out, The Bulls better win this game tonight, not really a Bulls fan, but Im just pulling for them in my predicted bracket. Listening to some Gary Taylor to ease me up a bit.
www.youtube.com/embed/8I8vBbDM6Co
So I saw this video on Youtube, another favorite vid blogger, and he just got me thinking. I really do need to exercise my inner asshole. Just thinking back in certain stuff, including relationships & other things in life, I may have been too nice. Women have been arguing about there is no good men around, yet are women more entertained by the good guy or the guy thats the asshole?? Women can SAY they want a good guy but actions can speak differently especially w/ choosing a certain man. Women can blast men all day long, but who's choosing them and not really getting to know them before laying w/ them?? Women, why do some men become bad?? Because some of us notice that we can have sex & get other stuff w/ certain women sooner as being bad than being good. And I have notice that somehow the good man is looked at as the backup option instead. Here's a story that happened to me a couple of years ago:
I was cool w/ a girl named Samantha in high school, she was a grade under me, but then she moved to Kansas City w/ her family. Fast forward to 2007, I saw her on MySpace & she now a model, I was gonna visit her city because of my frat's regionals, send 2 msgs to her, yet never heard from her. Then around late 2008/early 2009, Sam hits me up on facebook. Now she talking about how she had a crush on me when I was in high school, and she was having problems w/ her babydaddy in KC. I should have been like why didnt you hit me up in 07 but I listened, but now she hasnt said much to me anymore.
But thinking about it now, maybe I really didnt use my inner asshole to save my last relationship. I was accused of being boring, and a lot of stuff I talked about went over her head. I dont really talked to my ex anymore because if she felt I was boring, then she doesnt have to worry about me anymore. Im just working on my inner asshole, still gonna be me, but not being a fullblown asshole, but to where I can be unpredictable & not a walkover.
But being an asshole doesnt just go for relationships or meeting women, but also other aspects. Going to the Univ of Memphis, Coach Cal was one of my favorite coaches on the scene. On campus, a lot of people said Coach Cal was an asshole to people, but he got the job done w/ the bball team.
OK, Im done & Im out, The Bulls better win this game tonight, not really a Bulls fan, but Im just pulling for them in my predicted bracket. Listening to some Gary Taylor to ease me up a bit.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Waiting for the END.............of May 21st, 2011 lol
Just here bored today, all I can really do is eat, workout, read, & clean up. Whats worse is that theres really nothing on TV to watch. May just make it a movie & food night.
I just went on Facebook and saw Lydia Cotton, one of my favorite blogger, showing a video about a writer from New York name Janet Mock, doing a video, admitting she was a transexual. Now seeing her, I thought she was gorgeous, but seeing that she was born a man, I think she still gorgeous, but I most likely wont date her. Im comfortable in my sexuality as a straight man to admit she was fine, yet I know not to mess with her. But the key point of the video is she is living her life to the fullest and she is not being fake about who she is, she's comfortable w/ herself. The one thing about the BGLT community we could all learn from is that when society wants us to be a certain way, we have to be brave to just be ourselves, even when we get criticized for being different.
So they say that today is the day the world is going to end. Notice in the movies & TV a lot of world-ending stuff happens when theres a black president of the US. I can talk all kinds of crap about it, if it happens, it happens, if it dont, it dont. My thing is I feel that God usually deals with us as individuals more than as a group. It just feels like a tarot reading, we want to know when our time is up rather than just let it happen when it happens. I know God has a plan for all of us, but I know God wants us to live life to the fullest, not having to worry about when we gonna die. God wants us to follow him but it dont mean he wants us to stop living period. What if this "warning" never happened?? Oh, you want to see this as a way to get right before our time is up. The thing is we are supposed to be good people this whole time, not when we might face death.
No matter what happens, I'm still gonna be Jarrid E. Johnson, doing what I can to live a positive life & be a positive influence to the people around me, and if people dont like it, thats OK, at least God like me for it....................
I just went on Facebook and saw Lydia Cotton, one of my favorite blogger, showing a video about a writer from New York name Janet Mock, doing a video, admitting she was a transexual. Now seeing her, I thought she was gorgeous, but seeing that she was born a man, I think she still gorgeous, but I most likely wont date her. Im comfortable in my sexuality as a straight man to admit she was fine, yet I know not to mess with her. But the key point of the video is she is living her life to the fullest and she is not being fake about who she is, she's comfortable w/ herself. The one thing about the BGLT community we could all learn from is that when society wants us to be a certain way, we have to be brave to just be ourselves, even when we get criticized for being different.
So they say that today is the day the world is going to end. Notice in the movies & TV a lot of world-ending stuff happens when theres a black president of the US. I can talk all kinds of crap about it, if it happens, it happens, if it dont, it dont. My thing is I feel that God usually deals with us as individuals more than as a group. It just feels like a tarot reading, we want to know when our time is up rather than just let it happen when it happens. I know God has a plan for all of us, but I know God wants us to live life to the fullest, not having to worry about when we gonna die. God wants us to follow him but it dont mean he wants us to stop living period. What if this "warning" never happened?? Oh, you want to see this as a way to get right before our time is up. The thing is we are supposed to be good people this whole time, not when we might face death.
No matter what happens, I'm still gonna be Jarrid E. Johnson, doing what I can to live a positive life & be a positive influence to the people around me, and if people dont like it, thats OK, at least God like me for it....................
Friday, May 20, 2011
My bad........TODAY is the 20th, not yesterday
I somehow thought that yesterday was the 20th, threw myself & some peeps off. But really, glad its Friday, got nothing much planned, but my homeboy wants to go out this weekend because we didnt get to go somewhere last weekend when he graduate. Im still waiting to hear from my co-worker if she still gonna hold a bash this weekend for her son's grad from high school. I went to dude's house last night because he wanted to give me pics from last weekend, ended up playing Tekken most of the night. Already told him we brothers but the key diff between us is that he likes fighting games, I like sports games.
What had me thinking as well from last night was dude told me he had another friend, and this friend like big white girls, really, specifically big white girls. I dont know why, but if we all kick it this weekend, I'm going in & asking him why. If you don't know, my city does have a high amount of interacial dating, but dude said big white girls. We also talked about my homie STILL goes on Blackplanet. I clowned him right there on the spot, mentioned that Blackplanet not holds some of the most ugly people on there, and he telling me that the only reason he about to get off is because transexuals are on there trying to hit on him.
Today, I was checking out www.djdimepiece.com to see whats good to download and I saw an interesting article. Kobe Bryant's wife wants to have a reality show because of Khloe & Lamar Kardashian (Yeah I said it!!!), I know Im late on hearing this. What else does Vanessa want?? She married to Kobe & hardly has to work, not to mention the $1M ring she gotten from him.............
I also have been questioning about something: Would you go on a date w/ someone if that someone's mom wants you to date them?? I've been having my mom's friend trying to drop hints that she wants me to date her daughter. She not cute but not bad looking, yet she had a baby by a friend of mine a few years back. Here's another thing: The mother has 3 kids including the daughter, the daughter is single?? w/ a child, and the two other kids, a son & daughter, are both married to white people, and someone told me that the mother said "she wouldnt mind having a black inlaw". But maybe all this stuff going on, I may just back off & let time tell AND I did say at one point I wasnt gonna date the girls here in this city.
But yeah, Im hungry & ready to go, thought I was gonna go to Oaklawn for Happy Hour but weather's funny & forgot that happy hour specials were from Mon-Thurs only. Have a good weekend & let me see what trouble or sleep I can get into.
What had me thinking as well from last night was dude told me he had another friend, and this friend like big white girls, really, specifically big white girls. I dont know why, but if we all kick it this weekend, I'm going in & asking him why. If you don't know, my city does have a high amount of interacial dating, but dude said big white girls. We also talked about my homie STILL goes on Blackplanet. I clowned him right there on the spot, mentioned that Blackplanet not holds some of the most ugly people on there, and he telling me that the only reason he about to get off is because transexuals are on there trying to hit on him.
Today, I was checking out www.djdimepiece.com to see whats good to download and I saw an interesting article. Kobe Bryant's wife wants to have a reality show because of Khloe & Lamar Kardashian (Yeah I said it!!!), I know Im late on hearing this. What else does Vanessa want?? She married to Kobe & hardly has to work, not to mention the $1M ring she gotten from him.............
I also have been questioning about something: Would you go on a date w/ someone if that someone's mom wants you to date them?? I've been having my mom's friend trying to drop hints that she wants me to date her daughter. She not cute but not bad looking, yet she had a baby by a friend of mine a few years back. Here's another thing: The mother has 3 kids including the daughter, the daughter is single?? w/ a child, and the two other kids, a son & daughter, are both married to white people, and someone told me that the mother said "she wouldnt mind having a black inlaw". But maybe all this stuff going on, I may just back off & let time tell AND I did say at one point I wasnt gonna date the girls here in this city.
But yeah, Im hungry & ready to go, thought I was gonna go to Oaklawn for Happy Hour but weather's funny & forgot that happy hour specials were from Mon-Thurs only. Have a good weekend & let me see what trouble or sleep I can get into.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Happy 5/20 *puff* #Dontjudgeme
Just want to go to bed for the rest of the day. My old high school is having their graduation tonight yet Im debating on going, my former coworker's son is graduating, he going to HSU, I would tell him to go to my school Memphis, yet I know they keep hiking that tuition up.
I read some of the articles on Arnold S's (I said Arnold S's because Im too lazy to type the cali governor's last name) issues w/ the child coming out the woodwork. I was wondering: The child is about 13 or 14 yrs old, why they wait to say something now?? Did someone just getting ahold of the story??
Honestly, I dont know how his wife feels, she may have a smiling face now but what does she feel behind closed doors??
It just makes me think of all those wives who have important officials & even famous athletes as their significant others. Some cases the guys will be found cheating and the woman may either take them back or split. My thing is: If you gonna try to work out a relationship after someone cheats, dont try to do it for the wrong reasons. Some women may not split not because they love them, but because the man is famous & became dependent of the other person to where they cant handle being alone. Also, they may worry about what the public thinks, a man that is famous & has money could easily pick up someone else even if he has those "minor" problems. The thing is, if someone is doing you wrong over a certain period of time, you might need to leave. If they continue to have problems being faithful, dont stay. I feel sorry for certain wives of certain officials and athletes, you know your man is cheating but you finding every excuse not to leave. I remember when Kobe cheated, he got his wife a $1M ring just to say Im Sorry, but was that because there may be an idea of her being around just as a trophy & all she cared about was the money?? I mean, how many people own a $1M ring??
I feel there are at least 3 reasons someone could be afraid of leaving a relationship:
1) Fear of being Alone
2) Fear of losing certain things (money, fame, etc............)
3) Fear of Blame ("I dont get dumped, I do the dumping"). I always felt that sometimes a problem last longer than it should because neither side wants to look like the bad guy
But another thing I wonder is if do some of these special wives actually get freaky w/ their husbands. Some seem to act too fancy to throw down in the bedroom, maybe its just me. I also felt that Michelle Obama might be one of the only famous wives to please her husband, I havent heard anything of the prez cheating yet. But these women need to remember, what they wont do, another woman (or man) may do...................
Just me being random, this may sound off in some areas, yet just tired. Feel like making some chicken fajitas from the leftover chicken from last night.
I read some of the articles on Arnold S's (I said Arnold S's because Im too lazy to type the cali governor's last name) issues w/ the child coming out the woodwork. I was wondering: The child is about 13 or 14 yrs old, why they wait to say something now?? Did someone just getting ahold of the story??
Honestly, I dont know how his wife feels, she may have a smiling face now but what does she feel behind closed doors??
It just makes me think of all those wives who have important officials & even famous athletes as their significant others. Some cases the guys will be found cheating and the woman may either take them back or split. My thing is: If you gonna try to work out a relationship after someone cheats, dont try to do it for the wrong reasons. Some women may not split not because they love them, but because the man is famous & became dependent of the other person to where they cant handle being alone. Also, they may worry about what the public thinks, a man that is famous & has money could easily pick up someone else even if he has those "minor" problems. The thing is, if someone is doing you wrong over a certain period of time, you might need to leave. If they continue to have problems being faithful, dont stay. I feel sorry for certain wives of certain officials and athletes, you know your man is cheating but you finding every excuse not to leave. I remember when Kobe cheated, he got his wife a $1M ring just to say Im Sorry, but was that because there may be an idea of her being around just as a trophy & all she cared about was the money?? I mean, how many people own a $1M ring??
I feel there are at least 3 reasons someone could be afraid of leaving a relationship:
1) Fear of being Alone
2) Fear of losing certain things (money, fame, etc............)
3) Fear of Blame ("I dont get dumped, I do the dumping"). I always felt that sometimes a problem last longer than it should because neither side wants to look like the bad guy
But another thing I wonder is if do some of these special wives actually get freaky w/ their husbands. Some seem to act too fancy to throw down in the bedroom, maybe its just me. I also felt that Michelle Obama might be one of the only famous wives to please her husband, I havent heard anything of the prez cheating yet. But these women need to remember, what they wont do, another woman (or man) may do...................
Just me being random, this may sound off in some areas, yet just tired. Feel like making some chicken fajitas from the leftover chicken from last night.
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